you have put me in the most difficult position.
it's very hard for me to make my final decision.
to make it, or to break it.
4 years and you still have the heart do this.
it's the most unimaginable thing that you did.
i have done no wrong, and yet this is what i deserved?

finally learning the truth abt everything, every SINGLE thing that you did,

was the worst part ever in this r'ship.

i broke down on the spot when you confessed.

thoughts keep running thru my head, until now.

i'm stressed, confused and lost right now.

i've no idea what to do next.

thanks for doing all this to me.

after all the sacrifices i made, all the love i've given, and so much more,

i guess you couldn't see it all.

i was always there for you,

even though you were rarely there for me.

again, thanks for doing what you did.

i still love you no matter what,

but now i hate you too.

you started it, and now i have to clear up the mess

that you and Leeyan Masliana started.

it took us 4 years to build everything,

and just one mistake to ruin everything.

on 20-09-2009,

which is Hari Raya, your birthday, our anniversary,

is when i will tell you of my final decision.

until then,

my mind will still continue to think of your mistakes.

trying to make the decision,

because all the things that you said were all lies.
you lied to cover up your lies.

but always remember,

i'm too smart for you. and i will always be.

you chose the wrong girl to mess with.

i'm capable of anything.

take care.

loving you is a sin.